This world has become my desert
My lips pursed and cracked and swelled from dehydration
Your love is my water
I see it like a beautiful mirage
Every time I think I’m one step closer…
It disappears
My tongue starts to resemble sand paper
Rough and dry
Every part of me aches for the water
I have barely enough left to sustain me
No tears left to cry
My shallow heartbeat waivers
As the blood in my collapsed veins gets thicker
My blistered feet burn and ache in the hot sand
I’ve never felt distance quite like this
Distance has become a source of pain
Not a far off pain
A constant pain that never abandons me
It’s the only thing left to remind me that what I feel is real
Some days I don’t know how to keep walking when the agony becomes overpowering
Those moments when the hurt actually knocks the wind out of me
I chase the mirage
I know that what I’ve seen is real and that one day I will find you
I will be with you
You are my water and I know you’re always running beneath the surface of these barren grounds I walk on
Waiting for me to feel your pulse
Waiting on me to let you guide me to your source
And to trust that you are there
To trust that you have always been there
Right beneath the surface
Asking for me to find you
Waiting for me to believe you are real
Wanting for me to realize you
Maybe the water has been here the entire time
I simply chose not to look beyond the dirt
and find the aquifer